soft center

The other day, I wrote about how all of these hardships have helped me develop a thicker skin. This is true, but other days, I feel like the past events have also made me a lot more vulnerable and emotional than I used to be.

When I read Christina's post, I started to cry. I didn't really know her aunt, but I can empathize with her loss. It may take 40 days to ascend to heaven but it might take 40 years for me to really heal from all the pain I've felt recently.

There are good days and bad days. Mostly, I have days when I am happy that he's okay and in heaven, finally with my grandma and happy once again. Other days, all I can think about is how much I've lost and how everyone in my family is still suffering.

Today was just a bad one, tomorrow is another day, ready and waiting for good things to come...